Hi, my name is Caitlyn and I’m looking for some passion in my life.
Sorry. Got my new Match.com profile mixed up with blog post.
I ran into a current student from my alma mater yesterday downtown, and as we were talking, of course the “what do you do?” question came up. I told her, oh I do marketing at a publishing company, I like it, it’s good, blah blah.
She replied “I hope I can be as lucky as you and find something I’m passionate about when I start looking for jobs next year.”
In reply, I think I stood there and blinked at her. Maybe I was on auto-pilot and managed enough to nod. I would be impressed if I managed an all-knowing ‘mmmhmm.’
Passionate? Where oh where did she get passionate from?
The whole walk home I was turning over that word in my head. Why does she think I am passionate? I told her I liked my job. Does liking my job automatically equal passion? Am I actually passionate about it? I didn’t think so. I still don’t think so. I like that we publish books that help people with disabilities and the teachers and professionals who work with them. I like that. Maybe I’m passionate about that aspect of it? I don’t know. I LIKE marketing, but I wouldn’t ever say I’m passionate about it.
Clearly she doesn’t know what passionate means. But maybe I don’t, either.
Thank God for the trusty I-phone so I didn’t have to wait a single minute to pull up Merriam-Webster.
Definition of PASSIONATE
a : capable of, affected by, or expressing intense feeling
I guess that makes sense.
So of course, naturally I thought well what would I say I am passionate about.
I love to read. Thank God, there’s one.
Fine, enough about me, let’s look at other people.
I asked my roommates what they were passionate about.
Dana said service even though she hasn’t done a lot of it since graduation. Colleen said Netflix. They both agreed that they were not passionate about their jobs, which made me feel better.
I asked my mom what she thought I was passionate about. She said: reading, spending money when I should be saving and Bravo shows. I asked my 19 year old sister what she thought passion meant.
“It’s what gets you out of bed in the morning.”
That was another way to look at it. But really what gets me out of bed in the morning is the fact that I have to get up. It’s not an option like it was in college (it shouldn’t have been an option in college, but…..it was, heh). As much as I’d love to, I can’t lie in bed all day and then putter around my room in my sweatpants and T-shirts.
Right now what gets me out of bed in the morning is that I am paying for a gym and I am – finally – motivated for the first time in my life to lose weight and get in shape.
It’s motivation, but is it passion? I don’t think so, but I don’t really know.
I am actually really looking forward to trying more workouts and exercises. Before, I was monogamous with the treadmill. I *hope* fitness and exercise becomes a passion, but it might not and that’s okay. I don’t think it needs to. I’ll keep doing it anyway. Which brings up yet another question, can you MAKE something be a passion? Prowling around Google land seems to say “no”.
But yet, I still don’t really know what I am passionate about. At 23-years-old-and-361-days, should I?
All I know is….
- How do you define “passion” or “passionate”
- What are you passionate about?
- Is it necessary to be passionate about your job? Or just an extra perk?
*kidding about match.com.